Last week I posted a journal entry stating I believed nothing was unforgivable. Well, there's a reason for that, which should shed some light on a few other things.
I'm afraid of permanence.
If a significant decision is irrevocable, I will hesitate as much as possible to make it. I'm always afraid I'll make the wrong choice and regret it for the rest of my life. I can't let go easily.
Today I stumbled upon a review for a computer game called "OneShot". I won't share the details, but part of its appeal is that if you lose the game, or even quit outside of a save point, it's over and you can't ever play it again (unless you delete the save data or something). The game unnerved me as soon as I read that, and I couldn't bear to click the download link.
That might explain a few things about me. Perhaps there's still something else behind it. I'd like to know as much about myself as possible.