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It's after ten in the evening and I tried to go to sleep half an hour ago, but a sudden wave of anxiety kept me up.  So here's a journal entry.

I've got a programming project due on Monday in one of my computer science courses.  The teacher said it was fairly easy-- a competent enough student could have it done in one day.  Well, I'm not that student.  I haven't even been able to start the project.  It involves a bunch of concepts that feel too complicated for me; I haven't used fork() in years, and I've completely forgotten how to set up a pipeline.  It just all feels too obtuse for me.

I'm in way over my head.  And for my grade, this shouldn't be the case.  To borrow a video game term, I'm underleveled.

I tend to struggle with the more hands-on aspects of computer science, and unfortunately that's exactly what both of the courses I'm taking right now are focusing on.  Oh, and the class I have the project in?  Passing that course is required for getting a master's degree in computer science.

I'm starting to think I'm not cut out for a degree in comp-sci.  But there's nothing else I'm really interested in.  (Well, there's nothing I'm really interested in, period.)

My life desperately needs guidance.  My life desperately needs something.  All I know is, I'm in a position I would very much not like to be in.  And my chances of getting out of that position look rather grim.

...You think I'm being too pessimistic?  It's hard not to be pessimistic in a situation like mine.
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bogm0nst3r's avatar
You always seem pessimistic to me.

Try asking your classmates for help, or review what you did prior to this project or class. That or drop out.